Well I complained about being unloved and then it took me like forever to come back and I find that I am loved....Sorry Al, you don't count, I already knew you loved me because you know I'm your shopping accomplice.

But I have to admit, I have no more excuses for not writing more often as we now have a brand spanking new laptop at my house. It's all very exciting and I can stop being bad and sneakily checking my email at work (nah, I can't stop that addiction). It is quite funny how when I worked at my old job I used to spend half my life online. Surfing, writing, checking my email about a bizillion times. Now, I feel so good at the end of the day. Like I've really accomplished something. It does make you enjoy going to work everyday when you feel like a necessary component of something. And, it's a real happy feely environment 'cause it's just us three girls talking about frilly weddings all day. Well, not all of them are frilly but it is an awfully girlie profession and I LOVE IT! It's funny because a friend who will not be named but she knows who she is returned home from school over Christmas and we hadn't seen each other since I started my job but the first thing she asked was whether working in the wedding business now makes me want to get married and I told her no. Sadly, she was like does it make you want to get married less. But no, it doesn't really have any change on my outlook for my future. Do I want to get married one day? I really don't know. Am I happy right now? Yes, dammit. Am I scared shitless that if I rushed into marriage I would end up making the hugest mistake of my life and end up divorced? Freakin' right! It's such a scary balance and there are way too many things for me to consider when it comes to all that there shit. But, you know what, I like the idea of creating the most beautiful day of people's lives. We received an email the other day addressed to myself and my boss thanking us for making the most special day of their lives so perfect. The new husband thanked us for calming his future wife when she would call all worried about some different aspect of her day. Which, in all honesty, if I was putting my faith in people I'd never met before on an Island I'd maybe never visited before, I'd be having a few heart palpitations too (and that's on top of the prospect of getting married). It's great, I'll just enjoy the stress of planning their big day and let them worry about the rest of their lives, it's way more fun that way!